It was a rainy evening, and the cold wind was blowing the fallen leaves and raging in the city. Maya and I were holding umbrellas and standing at the door of the Municipal Maternity and Children's Hospital. In the crowd of people, she looked at me with a pale face. "Maxwell, I'm pregnant." I was stunned for a moment, then stared and said, "Go find the person who got you pregnant. Why are you calling me to ask me out?" "I've only slept with a man like you this year. Who would I be looking for if I didn't look for you?" "I said I've slept with a woman like you this year, do you believe it?" "Maxwell, are you a man?" "Everyone is here to have fun. Don't rely on me for this kind of thing. If you want me to take responsibility, come up with something practical. Don't make empty talk with me. Who would be willing to act like a fool? father" Maya was silent for a while and said to me: "The child has been taken away. Where is the certificate?" I was a little angry: "Do you think I look like Kaizi? Your child was taken away, and then..." I raised my hand and said speechlessly: "Then, tell me that the child is mine. Maxwell, are you being naive or am I really stupid? Maya, we are all adults, can we do something decent?" Maya bit her lip and looked at me, and said after a while: "You don't want to take responsibility, do you? I will go to your company tomorrow." "What do I rely on you for?" I said angrily. Maya bit her lip tightly and looked at me, but I thought she was a good actress. She and I met in a bar, and then we had a one-night stand. A woman who often went to bars said that she had only had sex with a man like me in a year. Relationship, if I want to believe her, I will be an idiot. I didn't want to tangle with her anymore, so I took out my wallet, took out all the one hundred yuan bills and handed it to her: "Don't you just want money? Take it, and don't bother me anymore." Maya didn't say anything or bother with me anymore. She nodded, turned around and walked to the hospital holding an umbrella, as if she still had some unpaid fees. Looking at her lonely back in the rain, I suddenly felt an indescribable emotion in my heart. Although I did not believe that the child in her belly was mine, and although I was tired of her, I felt that her life must not be easy now. Otherwise, he wouldn’t have blackmailed me like this. I was silent for a long time and finally called her: "Wait a minute." Maya looked back at me. I took out a bank card from my wallet and handed it to her: "This card can be used to overdraw some money. You have just had an operation. Buy some things to replenish your health." Maya did not answer: "No, seeing that you are willing to take responsibility is my purpose. I am looking for you because I don't want to be slept with in a daze or get pregnant in a daze." In the bar, I was drinking while waiting for Fangyuan, my only close friend and Wesley in this city. Since the first day in this bar, I have seen too many lonely women and empty men drinking various kinds of wine here, either silently, or with eyes full of desire looking for a person called "Drunken Life, Dreaming and Death" "s things. In fact, when we abandon our physical bodies during the day and let our souls get lost in this feasting and feasting, we are already intoxicated. I forget which night I started, I regard this place as a place to settle down. I like the women here twisting their waists, the swaying lights, the drinks of various colors, the smell of perfume mixed with tobacco, I like The drunken life and dream of death here, and then in the drunken life and dream of death, the messy past is carved into a tombstone. I lit a cigarette, took off the film on the cigarette case, covered it in front of my eyes, looked at the flickering light, and my body swayed along with it. In the light refracted by the film, I seemed to see a kind of corruption that was passing by, and I couldn't help but feel a little bit. entranced Wesley removed the film from my hand, and my world suddenly became clear again. "Why are you so anxious to see me?"Wesley put down the briefcase in his hand, took out a cigarette from my cigarette case and lit it for himself. "Borrow some money, I'm being blackmailed" "I made that girl's belly bigger again,"Wesley said in a surprised tone. "Your uncle is really being blackmailed this time." "Who blackmailed you again this time?" "Why are you asking so much nonsense?" "Every time I lend you thousands, thousands, you should at least let me know that my money has been embezzled by someone." "Maya." I lit a cigarette angrily and said. "That flat model" "Isn't it just her? Your family is in chaos. She said she slept with a man like me within a year. Do you believe it? Wesley, this matter will be left to you. Do you believe it?" I banged the table with my fingers because of my excitement. "Sound." "This kind of thing can't happen to me. Besides, she won't cheat you out of thousands of dollars. She took all the promotional posters for our department store last month, and the reward alone was more than 10,000 yuan." I interrupted Wesley with a sneer and said, "Don't you look at what she spends on her usual expenses? Can more than ten thousand yuan be enough to sustain her for a month? Now she has an accident while playing with others and has no money to deal with the aftermath. She thinks of me again." I'm so fucking cheap for this cheap friend. I shouldn't have introduced her to our company so kindly in the first place. I didn't give her less money, and now she's cheating on me. Do you still have any conscience in the industry?" Wesley ignored my anger and asked me in a low voice, "Did you take that thing with you when you slept with her?" I thought about it for a long time and all I could remember was that I was almost drunk. I couldn’t remember whether I was wearing a condom or not. After a while I said, “If I was wearing a condom, can I say that I was cheated?” Wesley glanced at me suspiciously, then sighed and said to me after a long time: "Maxwell, we have been friends for almost ten years. Sometimes I really want to persuade you. I know that Emily breaking up with you is a big blow to you, but It’s been two years, you really don’t need to waste your youth and wait for others like this, just find a girlfriend and settle down, okay?” When the name Emily was mentioned again, I subconsciously froze for a moment before saying, "Don't worry about my idleness. My brother is living a good life." “There’s no shortage of worries, right?” Wesley enlightened me for a long time, and I dealt with it impatiently for a long time. In the end, he left with the words "Mud can't hold up the wall" and left with dissatisfaction, but he forgot that he and I borrowed money. Fortunately, I have been working in the bar for two years, and I often bring some friends to the bar to spend money. I am relatively familiar with the bar owner, so the consumption of this drinking was temporarily recorded in my account. Walking out of the bar, holding an umbrella and walking on the rain-soaked streets, I truly understood what it means to be alone. I struggled in this city for two years, but what I gained was endless emptiness and loneliness. In order to get rid of this poison, it seemed like Due to the emptiness and loneliness, I had to wear a mask to cover up my shame. With this mask, I could live my life with peace of mind. But no matter how much I struggle on the edge of pain, she will never come back. I walked several stops alone in a sense of loss before returning to the community where I lived. It was an old community with no properties. In the first year after I came here, I heard from the aunts in the community that this community was not well built. In the early 1990s, due to the erosion of the long years, every building in the community looked so dilapidated, but they were built next to each other, as if they were afraid of being alone, so it seemed that each building had another It makes me feel that in the dead of night, they will whisper a few words to relieve decades of loneliness. Holding a cigarette and taking out the keys from my pocket, I walked towards the building where I lived. This building was the only one with ivy in the community. Every summer, the south-facing walls would be very green. If If these buildings are also divided into genders, then this building is undoubtedly a woman, an indifferent woman. It often makes people feel sad for her What surprised me was that there was a red Audi Q7 parked downstairs in this dilapidated building. In my memory, after living here for two years, there seemed to be no cars worth more than 500,000 yuan in this community. Without thinking much, I whistled and walked along the corridor to the house where I lived. When I reached the top floor, I was surprised to find that the door of the house was ajar. I remembered that I had locked the door when I left, so I subconsciously thought There was a thief in the house. After calming down, I remembered that I had not paid rent to the landlord, Oscar, for two months. It was probably Oscar who came to press for rent. Opening the door, the landlord Oscar and a strange woman were sitting on the sofa. There was a bunch of Audi Q7 car keys on the coffee table. There was no doubt that the Q7 parked downstairs belonged to this strange girl. Then a question flashed in my mind: What kind of magical power does Oscar, a common man in the city, have to bring such a noble girl as inviolable as a white lily to appear in this simple house? This really puzzles me.