Chapter 8

Tokyo's POV

"So..." I broke the silence that's filling in the room, tension rising and I know myself that this isn't a good thing.

"You knew?" Cali looking at Storm who just scratched his forehead.

Yeah, this is definitely not a good thing.

Cali 's eyes landed on Zanaya.

Her family just left and we're all shock about the new information that we just found out.

Zanaya and Seth were married, like legally married and not just some boyfriend and girlfriend.

They are married.

Then it all down into me. Everything that had happened. Those moments when Zanaya was crying so hard, those moments when she almost fainted after seeing a new scandal about Seth being linked to some other girl. Or that time when she almost lost it after the Sally and Seth incident.

Everything now made sense.

My eyes snapped to Zanaya's direction when she suddenly spoke. "I didn't tell him,"

But then Cali just marched straight to her room.

Before she did, my eyes caught the sight of her pained expression, and it broke my heart into pieces.

"What sort of bullshit is this?" Max's voice roared across the room.

It is never a good thing when Max curse.

I bit my fingernail as I stare at the people in front of me.

The room was silent.

After Max snapping and Cali walking out, the only thing you can hear in the room was everyone's irregular breathing.

Max had been silent the whole time while Cali stays in her room. Storm followed her but seeing the expression of Cali earlier, I doubt he will be able to talk to her at this time.

I can't even understand everything that they've been talking about as my attention focused on Zanaya.

She was shaking. I wanted to move forward and hug her but I was frozen from my spot, unable to move.

I'm not sure if I'm in the position to do it at this point.

She has her husband. She doesn't need me right now.

And to be honest, I don't even know what to feel.

I looked down as I bite my lower lip.

We've been together for years.

We've spent thousands of sleepless nights for practice.

We all cry together as we fight hunger while we are on a diet.

We massage each other as our body sore from all the bruises we earn from doing hard choreographed dance for our monthly evaluations.

We share each other's pain whenever one feels like giving up.

We did all things together, share each other's secrets because we're sisters.

We trusted each other.

We did.

But now, I'm not sure.

My head snapped back up when I heard her soft whimper as she tries to stop herself from crying.

My eyes soften at the sight of her while Seth hugs her closer trying to calm her down.

I wanted to comfort her, tell her everything would be fine.

But I can't.

And at the same time, I felt confused.

Am I mad at her for not telling us? I don't know.

I honestly don't know what to feel.

Am I hurt? I think so.

Betrayal...is this what my others felt?

My heart is beating like crazy and yet my body felt numb.

My inside churning as I felt all of my emotions seeping the remaining sanity left in me.

She was married and I wasn't even aware.

"Stop crying Zanaya..." Raze sounded worried as he stares at the girl having a breakdown in front of us.

My ears are able to hear the conversation that the rest of SHADOW was having but my eyes are focused on her.

Her eyes were red and it broke my heart to see her like this like she was in so much pain.

Hiding the truth from us, my heart knows she had a hard time doing it.

Every bit of me knows how Zanaya normally is. She can't help but share even the smallest thing to us four. And her marriage, she would definitely tell that to us if she had a choice.

Every one of us dreamed of getting married and I knew we promised to be each other's maid of honor or something.

"Did you personally tell Storm and not us?" Raze looked hurt as he confronts Seth.

"I didn't okay? I accidentally told every one of you when we were drunk. Apparently, Storm was sober and he remembered everything the next morning." he explained.

I watch as he gently wipes the tears off from Zaya's cheeks.

"I still don't get it. How did you two end up getting married?" Mono asked.

I sat down on the couch beside me while I let the boys do the talking. I don't have the energy left to meddle and butt in.

"Yeah, and how long have you been married?" Sky added.

"Almost two years?" Seth whispered.

"Two years!!!!!" Raze screamed and my eyes caught the action made by Grey.

He messed up his hair as he stares on the ground, probably confused about everything that is happening.

I was confused and shocked by the news but I know I can handle it. However, I don't think it's the same in his case.

Something is wrong and I can definitely see it.

No matter how much I pester him, this incident doesn't even come close. And my insides felt heavier at the sight of him.

Where is the happy and competitive Grey?

It seems like he's the most affected in his group.

"Yah, Seth! How can you do this to us?" Demo exclaimed, already standing. He looked baffled.

"I can't believe this," Mono added, his eyes wide open and anyone who sees his expression could literally read what he's thinking inside his head.

"I can't just tell you, okay?" Seth tried to explain.

"Why? Don't you trust us?" Sky butted in. His voice was shaky, obviously trying to calm himself down.

"Exactly my point." Max's voice was so stern, cold, and though it wasn't directed at me, I knew it pierced right though Zanaya's heart.

She looked at Zaya, pain evident in her eyes.

It breaks my heart to see my members like this.

WHISTLE is falling apart. And I, as a youngest member can't even do anything about it.

My hands started to shake. Useless, that's what I am.

"Is it that hard to say that you're fucking married?" she stated as she stood up from her seat.

Zaya looked at her, her eyes red from crying.

"It's not easy, okay..." her voice cracked. I know she had been trying to stop herself from totally breaking down.,

The room was silent, the words coming from each of us were clear, and at the same time, heartbreaking.

Every word is fucking painful. And it scares me. I'm scared of what's about to happen to every one of us.

"And it's easier to lie to us for two years?" Max's voice was already high.

A weird laugh escaped her lips.

I bite my lower lip as I try not to cry.

"Two years..." she balled her fist in anger. "Two long fucking years and we just found out today. Not because you decided to trust us. But because of the circumstances and you have no choice. Seriously Zaya, what are we to you?"

At this point, Max was already crying.

No.

Sky looked alarmed as he moves forward and wrapped his arms around her in support. Max is on the brink of breaking down.

And here I am, lost in everything.

Zaya and Max both in this state isn't actually the best thing. The rest of the boys were silent.

"You were married even before our debut," she added. "So that's why you are allowed to date. Because you're actually married."

Realization hit everyone.

Zanaya burst into more tears and it killed me. It's so painful to see the most important people in your life crying in front of you, hurting, not because they were hurt by other people but because they were hurt by something that involves the people we care about.

"Max, it's not her intention." Seth tried to reason out.

"Shut it!" Max scoffed. "It's exactly how it is!" And Seth shut up.

"Max, please calm down and hear them out." Sky rubbed Max's back.

"No." she stared at Sky. "I'm not mad about her getting married." she looked at Zaya painfully while the other just sat frozen beside Seth.

"I am hurt because she never told us. Because if she did, we could have understood. We could have supported her. Because I know she had a hard time for those two years."

Max's eyes softened. Zaya glanced back at her, confusion flushed on her tear-stained face.

"We could have beat the hell out of Seth when he hurt her."

All their eyes landed on me after I spoke.

Even I was startled. But I continued. I need to continue. I need to do something.

I'm not going to watch my members hurt each other in front of me.

I can't.

"We could have helped her get through all those pain of seeing her husband being linked with another girl. Or help her cope with the process of being a wife. We could have helped her cook for Seth." The words kept coming out from my mouth realizing what Max was talking about.

"Not that we won't do the same even if you two were not married. But the point is, we could have been there when you're struggling to try to hide everything and keeping all those pain by yourself." I looked at her.

"You're not alone Zaya. We're here." A smile escaped my lips.

"We're your family. And we trust family." Max added, her eyes no longer masked pain but understanding, love.

"I'm sorry..." Zaya covered her face.

"I know getting married may be a personal choice or a deeper reason may have been behind it, but within those two years, why didn't you try to tell us? Or do you have any plan on telling us at all?" I can't help but mutter. Deep down inside me, I want to know the reason why she did it.

Will I get mad if she told me?

To be honest, I'm not even sure.

Her marriage is not the issue and I know where Max and Cali is coming from.

We were left in the dark. For two long years.

But I can't blame Zanaya for everything as well.

"I wanted to tell you. Do you know how hard it was for me? I wanted to tell you all so badly but I don't know how. How can you expect me to tell you that I got married when we were all excited for our debut?" she stated, her voice hoarse.

Max looked down, realizing Zanaya's point.

A chuckle escaped my lips. "And it's not your obligation to tell us anyway. You have a choice, and that's your life." I added.

Max looked at me, her eyes wide at what I said.

And then she looked down realizing how hard it must have been for Zaya.

That's why I can't fully get mad at her. Zaya cares for us. I know she will tell us eventually.

There is no one to blame. Everyone had a hard time.

I understood why Max was hurt and at the same time, I knew Zanaya doesn't mean any harm. For all it's cost, she may be keeping this to herself for the sake of our group as well.

"Who else knows?" Max asked, her voice calmer than before.

"Just BP ENTERTAINMENT’s boss and our boss."

The room was once again silent.

We were just having fun an hour ago. How did everything turn out like this?

We were all startled when Grey suddenly stood up from his seat and headed straight to the door.

"Yah, Grey!"

"Grey!"

"Where are you going?!"

His members tried calling him but he didn't look back.

Was he crying?

Before I even knew what I was doing, I headed straight to the door to follow him, ignoring the calls from the rest of the group.

My insides felt weird as a gush of different emotions came through me.

Why did I feel so hurt when I saw him crying? Am I caring about how he feels now?

Of course. I'd feel like a bad person if I don't. I may be pestering the guy a lot but that doesn't mean I don't care for him.

I know my members need comfort but their boyfriends and husband are obviously there. Nor am I dense. I knew something is between Max and Sky. Whether they are in a relationship or not, I don't exactly know, but there is definitely something.

The same goes for Cali and Storm.

So I am the only single person left.

That's fine Tokyo, you have your fans.

My eyes caught something red from the corner of my eyes.

Grey's shirt.

Yeah, he needs a friend right now. And I'm obviously one.

Of course, Tokyo, you’re friends... Just friends. I told to myself.

"Grey..." I called his name. My feet moved forward, towards the direction where I saw him.

He needs someone, and at this time. I am the only person he has.

Sitting on the fire exit, his head hung low, his forehead on his arm, and for some reason, he looks like a child lost and helpless about the world.

Gone is the Grey Simons that will grin at me every time he beat me in a game that I don't even master, the Grey that will smile evilly and fight back every single moment I pester him...

This time, I only have a vulnerable Grey in front of me. And I don't know how to act with him like this.

He slowly looked up once he heard my voice and my heart shattered at his state.

His eyes were red and looking all confuse as he gave a glance.

"Tokyo..." he whispered and my body did the last thing I thought I would do, I pulled him into a hug.

It felt natural like this was what I am supposed to be doing. My body felt the warmth of his and his heart beating really fast wasn't left unnoticed by my sensitivity.

I pester him so much because I like it when he looked annoyed but seeing him like this feels like a needle was pricked on my chest.

Why am I hurt when I saw him cry?

"Hey, why are you crying?" I whispered, my hands behind his head, his face on my shoulder.

Too much body contact and I swear my heart started beating a little faster, it's making me confused.

He was silent for a minute, and I let him. I let him cry to release all of his emotions.

After a few moments, I felt his breathing back to regular.

"Seth, will he leave us?" he said a little scared, his voice breaking along the process.

And then I realized why he was crying.

He's afraid to lose his brother. SHADOW has been his life. The thought of having one of his brother leaving makes him break down and cry.

Of course, Grey Simons cared a lot for his brothers. I remember that time when I saw a video of him crying because his brothers are having a hard time.

A smile crossed my lips.

"He won't, stupid," I told him, while I pull a little of his hair, deciding to be a little playful with him.

"Awwww!" he screamed before pulling away from my hug.

"Tokyo!" he snarled. "Really? You're back at pestering me?" he looked annoyed and I laughed at his cute reaction.

I was trying to lighten the mood.

"Why? What are you gonna do?" I teased him. "Crybaby," I added, grinning.

He smirked at me.

That's the Grey that I know.

A smile formed on my lips, unprepared for what's about to come.

"This," he said and my eyes went wide open when his left hand grabbed the back of my neck and pulled me towards him, his other hand on my back.

The next thing I knew was my lips in contact with his.

Fuck.

My brain stopped functioning for a moment unable to comprehend what is happening.

My body sat frozen in front of him, my ears blocked from other sounds except for the loud beating that I was sure was my heart.

As my vision started to blur, my eyes started to focus only to him with his eyes closed as his lips slowly moved against mine, and my heart almost leaped out of my chest as his lips started moving expertly like he had been doing this before.

A soft whimper escaped my mouth as I felt him biting my lower lip, enough to drain all the energy in me. My insides felt a mixture of excitement. Everything went frenzy including my sanity and before I knew it, I found myself tilting my head so he can gain more access to my mouth, his soft lips devouring mine.

Now, I find myself lost from the taste of his lips.

His lips have got to be the softest thing I've ever felt, not that I have kissed anybody before. A groan escaped my mouth as I felt his tongue meeting mine while exploring my inside hungrily.

My heart beat races yet I didn't dare to pull away. As much as I want to deny it, I am enjoying this. His kisses were lustful, passionate like he had been wanting to do since forever. And it felt so good, so right.

My hands snaked around his waist as our lips moved in sync, his mouth starting to move aggressively and I swear I have never been so excited my whole life before this.

As if lost within the drug which is the taste of his lips, I hungrily bite his lower lip which earned a full out groan from him.

"Tokyo..." he moaned and all the hair at the back of my neck stood up and I was broken off from my trance.

My eyes immediately went wide open as I stop from kissing him back, pulling away from him immediately. I had to curse internally as I try to stop myself from reconnecting our lips.

His eyes met mine and he looked lost.

Shit. Shit. Shit.

Shit. Did Grey Simons just kiss me?

And did I just kiss him back?

With that in thought, I slowly stood up from my seat and turned away, not bothering to look back even after I heard him calling my name.

Tokyo, what have you gotten yourself into?