chapter 1 At least you fell in love once, but you didn't let me witness your love?

Balwina Jiang leaned weakly on Gerhard chest, listening to his strong heartbeat and feeling the residual warmth he left in her body. Her heart was racing, and it took a long time to calm down.

He was smoking a post-event cigarette and puffing away the smoke, looking like he was enjoying himself.

"I'm twenty-six this year."Balwina Jiang put her hand on his chest, her voice delicate and soft, "My family is urging me to get married."

The ash fell on the quilt cover.

Balwina Jiang's hand felt his heartbeat pause.

Gerhard casually dusted off the cigarette ash from his quilt and asked casually: "Have you found a suitable marriage partner?"

"Um."

"you like him?"

"He said he would give me a home."

Gerhard took a puff of his cigarette and put it in the ashtray.

"That's good. I'll move out in a moment." He pushed her away gently, lifted the quilt, got out of bed, and went to the bathroom.

Balwina Jiang felt uncomfortable listening to the sound of water running in the bathroom. She lifted the quilt and got out of bed barefoot, opening the bathroom door. There was a mist of water inside. His tall and strong body, with wide shoulders, narrow waist and long legs, gave her a boring life. Bring joy.

Gerhard turned around, and the two of them were separated by white mist. He turned off the water and asked her, "What? Do you still want to experience it?"

In the past three years, Balwina Jiang had been naked with him many times, but she was still a little shy every time.

However, being shy doesn't mean she doesn't dare.

She walked towards him, put her hands on his chest, and moved down little by little until he let out a muffled groan. She kissed the water on his chest, her eyes were misty, and her red lips parted lightly, "You really don't want to marry me?" I?"

Gerhard raised his head, closed his eyes, and said with enjoyment on his face, "We agreed from the beginning."

"But, are you willing to give it up?"Balwina Jiang knew his sensitivity so well that once she took advantage of it, he wanted to give it to her.

Gerhard throat was dry, so he swallowed lightly, and Balwina Jiang bit his Adam's apple.

Gerhard opened his eyes, pinched her waist with his big hands, picked her up, and said in a hoarse voice, "Then don't get married."

"I can't afford it."Balwina Jiang raised her head, white mist swayed in front of her eyes, as did the lamp above her head.

"Then you go get married."

Gerhard voice was hoarse, thinking that she would do this kind of thing with another man in the future, his movements became louder and louder, venting his emotions, wishing he could kill her.

In this way, she will not get married.

Balwina Jiang used all the tricks to accompany him crazy, thinking that Gerhard would miss her, even if he lied to her and said he would marry her, but in the end he left simply.

Touching the pillow where he had slept, he thought of three years ago.

Three years ago, he was drunk on the roadside, and she took advantage of him and took him home.

That night, under the influence of alcohol, she spent the whole night crazily with him.

After he sobered up, he said that he was very compatible with her and that if she wanted to keep her company, she would be fine with her. If she wanted to get married anytime, just tell him and he would move on.

Sure enough, he kept his word.

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It was the first time for Balwina Jiang and Kaiholo Xue to go out to eat alone, and they were a little embarrassed at first.

Kaiholo Xue is gentle, talkative, and good at chatting. I don't feel disgusted when chatting with him, and there is no pressure. It just feels like getting together with old friends.

Suddenly, Kaiholo Xue said to Jiang You, "Does that person know you? He has been staring at us."

Balwina Jiang turned around in confusion, and met Gerhard's eyes, and her heart trembled.

What a coincidence, he is here too.

He walked so decisively, so he couldn't be following her on purpose.

Soon, this suspicion was completely dispelled.

A charming woman twisted her waist and walked towards him. The woman sat opposite him, and Gerhard never looked at her again.

So soon, I found a new bed partner.

His needs are quite large, and he needs them every night except during her menstrual period.

With her heart filled with panic, she calmed down and faced Kaiholo Xue again, and smiled at him, "I don't know him."

After dinner, Kaiholo Xue sent Balwina Jiang home.

When leaving the restaurant, Gerhard and the woman were still there. Balwina Jiang accidentally saw the woman's feet Gerhard's legs under the table.

…

As soon as she got home and entered the elevator, Balwina Jiang's mother called to ask about the situation.

Balwina Jiang knew what her parents thought. She was not married at the age of twenty-six. It didn't matter if she was far away, but her parents would be looked down upon by their neighbors.

She had a second child at the same age, and she didn’t have a partner yet, and other people’s spittle could drown her.

Balwina Jiang truthfully told her feelings for Kaiholo Xue, lowered her head and walked out of the elevator, "...it feels good to me. She should be a good marriage partner..."

She smelled the familiar smell of cigarettes, looked up, and saw Gerhard leaning against the wall at her door, with his coat on his wrist, legs propped up, a cigarette in his thin lips, and his cold eyes staring at her in the smoke.

Why is he here?

Shouldn't you have sex with your new love?

Balwina Jiang hung up the phone, took out the key from her bag and walked over expressionlessly.

Gerhard held the cigarette between his slender fingers and opened his mouth slightly when she came over. The smoke covered Balwina Jiang face.

Balwina Jiang is used to it.

She opens the door.

Looking back, she saw Gerhard looking at her with secretive eyes. Those eyes were the most seductive, so affectionate that it made people blush.

She likes... no, she loves Gerhard.

She thought Gerhard loved her too, otherwise why would he be so serious every night?

They have been together for three years.

He was very kind to her. As long as she liked or wanted, he would give it to her.

The only thing not given is marriage.

She attended her friend's wedding last year and came back to tell him how romantic and happy the wedding was.

He said only fools get married.

At that moment, she felt as if she had been thrown into a cold pool, and her whole body felt cold.

In fact, she should have understood that time that Gerhard didn't love her.

What I love is just the feeling of doing it with her.

People are like this, they always feel that they are different. That’s why I hit the wall again and again.

This time, she looked back.

"I forgot something."

"What?"

She remembered that all his things were taken away. In the past few days, she had been trying to find out something about him.

"I bought it that night, and there should be half a box left."Gerhard put out the cigarette butt and threw it in the trash can nearby.

Balwina Jiang instantly understood what he was talking about.

At the end of that night, I realized that there was no condom left.

The box I bought before only had six pieces, and they were used up in less than two days. Later, he bought ten boxes of them.

I was in a hurry that night, so I bought a box downstairs and used half of it.

He was said to have a lot of money, but he still had to come back to get back what he didn't use up.

The time it takes to come to her to pick it up is already spent buying it back for use.

Balwina Jiang took out the things and gave them to him.

Gerhard took it and put it in his trouser pocket, explaining: "I didn't want to come and get it at first, but everyone's size is different, so it may not work. If your new love sees it, you might make him feel inferior."

Balwina Jiang ears felt hot at the base.

Who wants him to explain?

"You should take it easy, know how to exercise restraint, and be careful not to get ripped off."Balwina Jiang You was not polite either.

Gerhard narrowed his eyes, "If I give you another three years, you won't be able to spend it all."

Balwina Jiang felt bitter in her heart. If she really had to play for another three years, half of her life would be gone.

At that time, she would really get stabbed in the spine.

"Let's go quickly. Don't make people wait too long."Balwina Jiang pushed the door open and tried to close it.

Gerhard held the door panel and Balwina Jiang looked at him.

Gerhard Adam's apple moved up and down slightly, "Are you really planning to get married?"

"Um."

The two were in a stalemate for a while, and Gerhard let go first, "Remember to send me an invitation when you get married."

Balwina Jiang said: "Let's see again."

She will not be enemies with the people she loves, nor can she be friends calmly.

It is even less possible to invite him to his wedding.

She was afraid that she would not be able to restrain her urge to run away from the marriage.

Gerhard raised his thin lips, "At least we have fallen in love once, and you don't want me to witness your love?"