Chapter 4

Natasha POV

We reached and I was about to open the door but he stopped me and said "Let me do it"

I gave him a shy smile and nodded my head. He smiled back and opened his side door and got out of the car.

He came toward my side and opened it. He forwarded his hand toward me and I held it and got out of the car.

It was a nice gesture. I heard from Kelly that only a gentleman does that on the date.

He held my hand and led me toward the diner. I can still feel the tingles on my hand when he held my hand.

He opened the door for me and gestured to me to walk first. I walked inside first then he came.

We sat on our chairs and ordered our food. He was staring at me continuously but I didn't meet the gaze.

His staring was making me nervous and making me feel something different.

"So let's play 20 questions. This way we can learn something about each other." He said suddenly snapping me out of my thoughts.

I looked at him and said softly "of course."

"Your favorite color," he asked me while staring at me.

"Black and yours," I said

"Mine is black too," he chuckled.

We played this game until our food arrived. I slowly started to eat it.

"Do you live with your parents?" He asked me curiously

I stopped eating and looked at his face. I bit my lips and saw that his gaze was now on my lips

"I am an orphan. I don't have anyone." I told him sadly

He held my hand and said "I am sorry. I didn't know about it. But I can understand that. I am an orphan too"

I looked up and saw his sad face. I felt something different in my heart. I squeezed his hand softly.

He looked at me with sad eyes and I said: "I am sorry too."

I know the feeling of being an orphan. It's very hard to live in this cruel world without any support.

There was a time when I missed having someone with me. Like when I got sick, that time I wanted my mother to take care of me.

Or when someone tried to molest me, that time I wanted my dad to protect me as all dads protect their daughters.

Or the time when I got my first period in my class. I thought I was having some type of disease which killed me.

I still want them with me but now I think they would be busy with their own children.

God bless their children and them a good life. What if I didn't get their love. 

It was in my destiny to not be loved by them. They should not get any trouble because of me.

"Natasha are you alright." Liam's voice brought me back from my thoughts 

"I am fine," I told him with a smile

He sighed and said "are you getting bored? Did I do something wrong?"

I looked at him with a shocked expression. Bored? How could he think like that?

Why would I get bored with him?. It might be the opposite? I am a boring person and I don't know how to talk.

"No. I am sorry it's just that I had never done this. I have never dated someone. Hell, you are the first man whom I have ever talked to. So I don't know what to do on this date. I hope you can understand." I finally told him what was in my mind.

He looked at me stunned and said: "I can understand as it was my first date as well."

I looked into his eyes to find something which tells me that he is lying but found nothing. I can see the honesty in his eyes.

But it was hard for me to believe him on this matter as he was so handsome.

Girls must be falling on his feet for one date. And here, he is on a date with an average looking girl.

I just gave him a smile and said "I am lucky then"

He rubbed circles on the back of my hand and said "Indeed you are"

Then we talked about other things. He told me that he worked as a PA of Mr. Knights.

He told me that his boss is very rude to everyone but he is his favorite.

I told him about my job and many things related to me. We talked to each other about our childhood.

"What are you most afraid of." He asked me when we walked out of the restaurant.

I bit my lips while having an internal battle whether to tell him or not.

"I am afraid of being touched by force,"  I told him honestly

I remembered when I was 15 and was coming back from work. The alley was deserted. No, a single soul was present there.

I heard footsteps from behind me. I looked back and saw that two people were following me.

I started to run but they chased me and pushed me down on the road. I screamed when my skin came in contact with the cemented road.

The wound on my knee started to bleed and I whimpered in pain and started to push myself back away from them.

They laughed and tore my top and was about to unzip my jeans but stopped when we heard yelling.

I looked ahead and saw that it was two men and a woman. They threatened to call the police and the goons left me.

I covered myself with the shredded top and ran from there. I didn't see my savior's faces as it was a dark alley.

After that day I started to get nightmares for a year and still sometimes they came.

"What about you?" I asked him ignoring his eyes

"I am afraid of loving someone." He said and I saw that he was looking at me while saying this.

I blushed and said, "We should go." 

"Yeah, you are right. We should go" he said and opened the door of the car for me.

I thanked him and sat inside the car. He sat too and drove off from here.

The ride was silent as I didn't know what to talk to him about after my declaration.

He must be regretting coming on the date with me. I am ready to face his rejection as well.

But I enjoyed it very much. This was the best day of my life. And like every happy moment, this moment is also going to end

We reached my home and he parked it outside the building. Like before he opened my gate and I got out of it.

Now I am nervously standing in front of him. My heart was beating so fast as it would come out of my mouth.

He held my hand and said "I loved it and I would love to take you on a date again. Would you like to go on a date with me again?" 

I felt an immense amount of happiness when I heard those words out.

I gave him a big smile and said "I would love to" 

I heard him sigh in relief. He leaned down to my face and I got nervous.

Is he going to kiss me? Am I ready for my first kiss? That was going on in my mind.

He gently kissed my cheek and said "I am glad"

He pulled back and I am sure my face must be red as a tomato. I gave him a shy smile and said "bye"

I walked past him and before entering inside the building, I turned back and waved at him then went to my apartment.