chapter 13 toad and swan

My brother was like this, with regret, anger, and disappointment, he completely disappeared from my life. I tried to find him, but I found nothing. Slowly, I also gave up looking for him , because I know very well in my heart that as long as Ruby and Dave Yi are still in this school, my brother and I will not be able to live here in peace. We are destined to hurt each other. Now, I can only pray silently in my heart, hoping that he Outside, I can live well.

Losing this only precious family relationship, my emotions seem to have been emptied, and the whole person is left with an empty shell, without thoughts or pain.

I don't know how I got back to school. I only know that there is Dave Yi waiting for me at school, and a storm is about to come. A sense of relief from sacrificing one's life to death, maybe, for me who is so ruined now, I won't feel more miserable after being trampled a few times, because I am already miserable enough.

Back in the dormitory, I didn't care about everything, fell asleep, let go of all kinds of emotions, people became indifferent, fell asleep quickly, and I fell asleep after a while, but when I was in the deepest sleep, My roommate woke me up and said someone was looking for me below.

What should come will always come, but it just came at such an inappropriate time. It feels really bad to be pulled from a dream to reality, especially to be pulled into a terrifying reality.

I thought I was really free and easy, and I wasn’t afraid anymore, but when it came to this time, I was still scared, scared, and I didn’t dare to go downstairs, I don’t know how Dave Yi would beat me and bully me, I don’t know how weak I am Can my body and bones bear it, but can I escape? what can I do? The only elder brother who risked his life to help me was angry with me and left. Didn't I have to bear all the pain and torture in the future by myself?

Thinking of this, I still mustered up the courage to get dressed and walked out of the bedroom silently.

Walking downstairs, I tried to search for Dave Yi's shadow with anxiety, but to my surprise, the figure I found was not Dave Yi's, but Ruby. Immediately, I felt a bright light in front of my eyes, as if I saw a light of hope in the extreme darkness. The light was soft and beautiful, and my heart immediately let go, accompanied by a burst of relief.

However, when Ruby saw me, she didn't show any expression. She just said indifferently, "Come with me", then turned and left.

I quickly and sadly followed her to the small river next to the dormitory.

This river is the River in Nursing School of the university campus. Young couples love to come here to talk about love. The river is paved with cobblestones and there are willow trees along the river. Ruby and I stood under a willow tree and looked at the river. River, feel the cold wind blowing, breathing stimulating and fresh air.

How many days and nights have I imagined that I would hold Ruby’s hand and dangle by the river, and when I was tired, I would sit on the bench by the river and talk about the world. Today, my dream seems to have come true, and I finally really Standing by the river with her, I can always recall that quiet and beautiful picture in the days to come.

But I also know that although the picture is beautiful, the mood of the person involved is completely different. I know that Ruby is not here to talk to me, she is here to inquire about crimes. Looking at her indifferent expression, I immediately put I pulled myself back to reality, and before she could speak, I confessed directly and consciously: "I'm sorry, I didn't bring my brother here, he has gone back now, and won't disturb your life!"

Ruby didn't reply to my words right away, she just used her fingers to hook her wind-blown hair to the back of her ears, her eyes kept staring at the river, and after a long time, she calmly said: "Well, it's nothing, I've already made peace with Dave Yi made it clear, he understood everything!"

Hearing this, my heart that had only a sliver of goodness fell into a trough again. I didn't expect that I hurt my brother cruelly, but what I got in return was the mutual understanding between her and Dave Yi. I lost everything for her, and She doesn't seem to see my sacrifice at all. In her eyes, I am so small, not as small as the willow leaf floating on the river. She would rather keep staring at that willow leaf than take a second look at me .

I felt sour for a while, and wanted to speak, but didn't know what to say.

Ruby didn't wait for me to speak, and continued to think about herself: "By the way, I know everything about you and Dave Yi, don't worry, he has promised me that he will not trouble you again, but I also promised He, after this time, will never contact you again!"

For me, this should be a great thing. I can finally live without fear and continue to study hard in school. However, I really can’t be happy at all. I am very disappointed and melancholy. They shivered slightly in the cold wind.

I wrapped up my coat, then turned around, stared at Ruby, and asked seriously: "Does that mean that we will be complete strangers from now on?"

Ruby still didn't turn her head to look at me, her eyes were still on the river, she only moved her lips lightly, and said a word: yes.

This word is sharper than a needle, and it hurts my heart deeply. Although we are not acquaintances, and I pretended to be strangers to her, she really said this. I still can't accept the words of resoluteness. I seem to feel more and more that Ruby has occupied all the places in my heart. She is my enlightenment to love.

It is impossible for me to forget her, but I have to respect her. In other words, I should be like my brother, a little bit self-aware, don't wishful thinking, a toad will never eat swan meat.

Thinking of this, I could only look at Ruby sadly, and said with difficulty: "Don't worry, I know what to do!"

There was another silence, time seemed to be frozen at this moment, she just stared blankly at the river, and I blankly stared at her delicate side face.

After a long time, Ruby suddenly murmured: "The fish was swimming in the river. It didn't eat the bait it wanted to eat, so it swam away!" After she finished speaking, she turned and left.

So resolutely, without even saying goodbye, I can only stare at her leaving back, mourning alone.

After she completely disappeared from my sight, I went to the place where she was standing just now, trying to feel her state of mind just now, I took a deep breath, smelling the girlish fragrance left by her, even if I could catch a little bit of it Taste, I also feel relieved.

After a long, long time, I was still standing here, looking at the river, but I didn’t see a single fish after standing for so long. I don’t understand what Ruby last words mean. Perhaps, I I will never have a chance to understand, all I know is that from now on, Ruby and I will have nothing to do with each other.

In the next few days, my life track returned to normal. Although I didn't believe that Dave Yi would let me go so easily, he did keep his promise and never came to trouble me again. The days are really peaceful, only occasionally I hear some discussions in the class, about me, they just use timid, pitiful, cowardly to describe, but for my brother, many people will praise, will brag, After all, my brother's terrifying power is indeed extraordinary.

Of course, I can ignore these things, but what happened next naturally pulled my heart.

At the beginning of the new year, the class held a small New Year's Eve Party, and the college held a relatively large-scale party. The school was unprecedentedly lively, and everyone was immersed in a joyful atmosphere, but I obviously had no interest in these.

However, when I knew that Ruby’s Finance School also held a New Year's Eve Party, I would still pay attention, especially when I learned that Ruby also participated in the show. Let her be fine! In the end, my footsteps followed my heart and went to the party scene. I hid in a small dark corner, stared at the stage, and looked forward to Ruby's appearance.

Wrapped in a thin coat, I waited for more than an hour in the cold wind and watched more than a dozen boring programs before finally waiting for Ruby's appearance.

As soon as Ruby appeared on the stage, I was dumbfounded immediately. She was so beautiful under the flickering lights. Her white dress like a wedding dress completely set off her graceful figure. The neckline of the dress was relatively low, and her breasts were like Like a flower, it swelled up like a bud, and it was extremely tempting.

What makes me even more speechless is that Ruby is wearing makeup today. This is the first time I saw her makeup. She didn't even put on makeup when she was a bride in the village. Tonight, on the stage, with exquisite makeup, she became more and more feminine and seductive. I couldn't take my eyes off her at all. I was completely stunned, and my soul was almost sucked away.

Not only me, but all the male dicks in the audience stared at the stage motionlessly with their eyes open and their mouths open, as if they had taken ecstasy.

Ruby was dressed so grandly, but in fact, the program she performed was to sing a song, a love song, sung by herself, without accompanying dancers.

She is so charming and quiet on the stage. When she sings, she is very devoted and her eyes are red. I have never heard this song before, but I can feel that this song is very sad. People who listen to it are inexplicably sad, but I was naturally attracted to it, and when I sang with affection, I suddenly had the illusion that it was Ruby singing it to me, because the resonance was so strong that it completely penetrated into my bones and soul.

If I have enough self-confidence, I have enough capital, I will rush to the stage desperately, confess to her, and tell her loudly that I like her, but in reality, I can only hide in the corner and fantasize silently , Even the fantasy will be shattered, because, with the end of her last note, with the thunderous applause from the audience, the princess charming under the lights ushered in her real prince charming.

I saw Dave Yi, who was dressed handsomely, jumped onto the stage holding a large bouquet of roses in his hands. Under the gaze of countless eyes from the audience, he knelt down gracefully on one knee and handed the flowers to Ruby.

This picture is so romantic and beautiful, anyone who looks at it will have to sigh, what a perfect couple made in heaven.

Everyone in the audience couldn't help standing up, applauding enthusiastically, cheering heartily, cheering for them, and giving them blessings, and I was just drowned in the enthusiastic cheers.

Maybe, I should really bless her and bless her for finding her own happiness. Maybe only Luan Yu can give her enough sense of security and happiness. I used to be worried about Dave Yi, but today I see how he dares to be in public. Confess boldly, what else do I have to worry about, no matter what kind of person Dave Yi is, at least, he loves Ruby, just because of this, I should let go completely, let go of Ruby from the bottom of my heart, and bless them .

I dare not look at the next scene, nor do I want to face it directly.

So, I shrank my shivering body, dragged my numb legs, and left here quietly.

I didn't go back to the dormitory, but went to the River in Nursing School, to the place where Ruby and I chatted for the last time. There are my wishful thinking and my bleak memories here. I sat alone on the bench by the river, Staring at the river surface reflecting the moonlight stupidly.

The surroundings are so quiet that I can hear my own breathing, and only at this time can I see my heart clearly and clear everything to think about some problems! Regarding Ruby, I still have one last point that I don't understand, that is, she told me that the fish swam away. On this night suitable for thinking, I pondered that sentence for a long, long time.

Finally, I seem to understand, the implication of what Ruby said to me was to tell me not to chase her, but to give up on her. That's right, that's what it means. Thinking of this, I suddenly laughed, and tears appeared in my eyes at some point. With tears in my eyes, I smiled. The smile was very desperate, tragic, and very clear. Everything should be It's over, it's really over and over, don't think about what doesn't belong to you, don't think about it at all, letting go is the only way to be liberated.

The night is very late, the door of the dormitory is about to be closed, and I am gradually relieved. This time, I made up my mind to bid farewell to the unrequited love in the past, to the ignorant love, and to Ruby. Farewell, farewell to Dave Yi, about them, it's time to pass. Speaking of which, Dave Yi is also quite a good person. For Ruby, he can really let go of his hatred for me and stop looking for me. Then, I should also let go of my grudge against him and face the future calmly.

One last look at the river, I stood up and went back to the dormitory. At this time, I didn't know how naive I was. I didn't know that the true face behind the calm was the storm you couldn't resist.

As soon as I got back to the downstairs of the dormitory, I felt something strange. Today the building is obviously much noisier than usual, especially when I walked to my floor, I saw that the outside of my dormitory was full of people , When they saw me, they immediately cast strange glances.

With an inexplicable mood, I broke through the crowds and came to the door of the dormitory. Here, I saw that my small dormitory was also full of people, including students from the student union and the Security Division department. It seems to be waiting for me!

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