Chapter 12 Why Do You Like Abusing Me?

Marylin Ye didn't sleep well all night after returning to her rental house. Sometimes, she dreamed that Jamie Shen was mad at her and abused her in different ways.

Sometimes she dreamed that Jamie was sitting on a stone bench in the garden of the Ye family house, looking at her arrogantly. He was the same as he was ten years ago, but to her astonishment, Jamie, who had never smiled at her ten years ago, gave her a smile in the dream.

Marylin realized that it was a dream because Jamie never ever smiled at her.

He would only be angry with her and blame her for doing nothing well. And when he went shopping with her, he would feel that she was troublesome. Even when he slept with her, he also was enraged with her because she acted like a dead fish and couldn't make him happy...

Marylin also tried to satisfy him, but it didn’t work. She felt that she was useless and hopeless. Meanwhile, she didn’t know what to do and how to satisfy him, although she did her best.

Marylin racked her brain in the dream but still couldn't find a satisfactory way.

When she woke up, she found tears scattered on her face and pillow.

After rapidly cleaning up, Marylin took a bus to the company to work on time.

Sitting trembling on the bus, Marylin was worried about how to treat Jamie if she met him later for she made him mad last night...

She also felt terrible when he was angry. It was useless to coax him, to please him, and to surrender to him because only he could calm himself down.

And his way of unburdening his feelings was different from ordinary people. He liked to smoke one by one and asked Marylin to sit on his lap to watch him quietly.

When he finished smoking half a pack of cigarettes, his anger would probably disappear for the most part. If he was in a better mood, he would throw her a stack of dollars at will. On the contrary, he would be dissatisfied with everything and then find various weird poses to torture her.

Jamie was Marylin's first man. So she didn't know how many women Jamie had slept with before.

When they first initiated this relationship, Jamie was as astringent as she was, which made the first time the worst. He tossed her over and over for he couldn't find a place to go into her while he also suffered from pain for a long time.

It was not until later that Jamie realized that he needed to incubate his emotions to do this. The foreplay before intercourse was also very important. Only when he gradually became better, he could find extreme happiness and wonderland in Marylin.

Jamie always seemed to have a lack of interest in that kind of thing. He only let Marylin pass by when he couldn’t control it occasionally. When he was busy, he only touched her once or twice in a month.

Anyway, Marylin was happy too because Jamie never forgot to pay her mother's medical expenses and she only had to go there when he needed to do the love-making thing. Actually, Jamie didn't seem to be keen on this matter.

However, such a leisurely and free time did not last long. In the past two years, Jamie had become more and more eager for some unknown reasons and he learned all kinds of terrifying actions from someplace, which made Marylin have to sleep with him more frequently. And every time he used a strange and novel posture to treat her and liked to change the place.

Occasionally, when Marylin dared to ask him where he learned these, he clasped her chin tightly and said, “Why do you care about where I learned it? Aren’t you being satisfied with that?" If Marylin asked him again, he would explain impatiently, “Women become hungry and thirsty when they are getting old. If I can't satisfy you well, you will blame me for not making you heavenly wonderful when you were young."

Marylin felt that he was getting more and more dishonest for he often talked about some dirty words while he was not like this before. And she found that she didn't hate his badness, sometimes she would blush when she heard what he said.

Marylin didn't know why she became like this. Maybe she had been changed by him a long time ago and she didn't notice it at that time.

People’s habits and surrender to another person were by no means changed in a day while it’s long-term persistence and habit. Jamie had probably been accustomed to her obedience, so he was furious after Marylin refused him, like the last night.

Sitting on the bus at the moment, Marylin was looking at the scenery going backward outside the window. She was about to arrive at the company and she would soon meet Jamie. She considered if he was still angry about that, what should she do and how should she explain leaving without waiting for him like she used to do last night? If she told him that she was driven out by his mother, who told her never to come back looking for her son. If she did, her future must be doomed with unimaginable difficulties...

Marylin got off the bus and walked to the company without any idea in her mind.

After entering the company's gate, she realized that it was morning rush hour and she had to queue to reach the elevator of the building.

As usual, Marylin lined up and waited patiently to move forward. Suddenly, Xiaoran Shi ran over to her back and patted her shoulder, "Marylin, hi, morning!"

Marylin smiled and didn’t feel surprised because she arrived at the company at the same time as Xiaoran did every time. And this was the ninth time she met Xiaoran at the elevator entrance this month.

They lined up and moved slowly. Xiaoran chatted with Marylin about this and about that, all office gossips.

"Marylin, I invited you to come out and accompany us to sing and drink last night, but you didn’t come with us. You know, it was fun!" Xiaoran talked about the department gathering last night in good spirits. "In the second half, the leaders of our department also came. In the end, he agreed to pay."

Marylin smiled and added apologetically: "I had something I needed to do last night. I promise I will attend a department gathering next time."

Xiaoran nodded, "Well! I know you have a boyfriend. Naturally, you are a bit busier than the bachelor like us!" Then she continued, "But if you want to attend the party next time, come with your boyfriend!"

Marylin suddenly felt anxious, confused about the boyfriend she never owned. Jamie was her boss, and...owner in the most orthodox way the world didn’t understand, and she had no courage to introduce him to her colleagues, friends, and what so ever normal social connections and activities.

She murmured, "...It depends..."

Obviously, Xiaoran did not take her unnaturalness seriously, while she talked with interest about the funny event of the party last night, "Hey, you know, our department leaders arrived in the second half last night. At first, we guessed he was dating a woman. After asking for a long time, we understood that he attended a banquet with Mr. Shen and the leader also revealed Mr. Shen's secret!"

On hearing the word "secret" and a secret about Jamie, Marylin came to a sudden excitement, eager to know more. She raised her eyebrows indifferently, "Oh? What's the secret?"